Honestly today, I don’t even want to get into blogging.  But the whole objective was being accountable to someone other than myself, so I have to, right?

There is some pretty big drama going on in my life right now that I really don’t want to get into.  the realization of some stuff, and its just eating me alive.  Jenn knows and that’s about it.  So needless to say, my eating habits have been in total disarray.

Yesterday, the last thing I had was a little bowl of chicken noodle at 12.  Last night, I went home and ate and drank nothing.  Slept for 13 hours.  Got up this morning, dying of hunger so I had a cup of coffee, a bagel and a little bowl of fruit.  For lunch so far I have had a piece of cheese, and a bag of popcorn with a Coke Zero.  I have some vegetable soup if necessary.

Emotionally, I am in no mood to eat.  Time wise, I don’t have time.  At this point, I am trying to eat to live not live to eat.  I don’t have the car so I might just take a walk after I finish a little work, so long as its not raining yet.

I weighed this morning:  140.   Fantastic.  Depression is a good color on me.

Last night consisted of a little more dramz than I really anticipated, so a little bit of comfort food was in order.  Yesterday, all I had was a coffee, piece of toast and a salad with some low-fat chicken salad on top…and about 40 gallons of water.  So last night, with a Coke Zero in hand, I made a little plate of nachos…with 2% cheese, a little bit of ground beef (93% lean) and some salsa and lettuce at about 7.  I was up for a few hours after that and took the dog for a walk as well, so I think I did pretty well considering I wanted eat rows 1 through 18 at the grocery store.  Why, when I have a bad day , do I feel entitled to piles of fattening food?  I don’t know.  But I think I did well considering.

Monday, I weighed in at 144 and this morning, I was a svelte 142.  We are going down to Clemson, SC this weekend to visit some college girlfriends I haven’t seen in a while…and next weekend, the boyfriend and I are headed to the beach to surf, so I have trying to behave so I can look my best for the trips.  I will have to wait to work out until after work today as the boyfriend has the car today.  I made him promise to go after work.  At this rate, and the support we have been getting from readers and friends, I am confident this is something we can do!