Seriously. I’m just tired of this yoyo effect. I slim down, feel great, hurt my back. I fatten up, feel like crap, hurt some more, take drugs. I work out – slowly at first, get into it, kick ass, slim down, lather, rinse, repeat….. Grrrr…..
The worst of it is I HAVE NOBODY TO BLAME!! Well, except myself. I am so envious of those people who look beautiful and healthy and are in great shape. I can’t even fit my fat girl pants right now and I’m just sitting here bitching about it. What did I eat for breakfast? I had my vitamins. Good for me. Oh yeah, and I had about 4 mini-Hershey candy bars because they were in my drawer and just taste so damn good. Otherwise, just tea and water.
I need about 1000 of these per day… How long would that take?
This is IT. I am going to do something drastic. I am going to get one of those stupid 30-60 day meal plans and stick to it. I’m going to hate it, but I have GOT to detox this jiggly ass and get moving somehow. I am going to start walking again in the morning, possibly even hitting the gym. My trainer doesn’t even know what I look like and I’m SURE he will be unhappy with me.
Yes, I do have a back issue, but I know how to take care of it with the proper stretching/strengthening techniques. I have to quit doing this to myself. NO – not because it’s 2011. Because I feel like CRAP and I HATE it. Any other reason just isn’t good enough for me.
